This past week, I was interviewed on The Better You Project Radio Show by hosts Susan Mc Mullen and Eric Holzclaw. Among other things, they asked me to talk about the path I took to get to where I am today. I realized when talking to them, that I rarely discuss the rough times when I was uncertain and afraid. And believe me, there have been some dark times. I think it is important to acknowledge those times so that others know that they happen and are part of the journey.
One pivotal time was when I sold my software company and I didn’t know what I was going to do next. What I knew for sure was that I didn’t want to go back to practicing psychology. For ten years, I had taken all the continuing ed and paid my license fees “just in case”. At that point I decided to let my license go so I wouldn’t have that as an option to “fall back” on.
In essence I was burning my ships, like Cortez did after coming to the New World. In fact, I changed a lot of things in my life about that time, including leaving my husband. It was exhilarating and totally frightening at the same time and I had no idea how I was going to make a living.
Stepping into the void of uncertainty and letting go of what is known and safe feels a lot like stepping into thin air. There is a quote that goes something like this: “all you need is for the light to shine on your next step and then the faith that it will shine when you take the next one”. Even now, I have given up trying to plan my life way out in the future and instead try and concentrate on brilliantly illuminating that one next step.