Fall is here, and maybe it’s the bit of a snap in the air, but I have had a major urge to clear out things that I no longer need, want or aren’t working for me.
A couple of weeks ago, I let go of 240 cans of paint that I had left over from construction jobs (I haven’t done a project with paint in over 4 years). I love color and when I paint, I have to try several shades and even mix them to get just the right one. I guess you could say it’s one of my “obsessions”. But enough is enough. I went through and found all the dead cans, threw them away, and then posted the rest on a site called FreeCycle. Four or five artists came over and got the rest of it. Whew! That felt good.
Then this week, my good friend Callahan came over and took away eight bins of old clothes I have been saving for when I am a size 6, 8, 10, 12 and 14, again. She is taking them to her house and sorting them into piles for our friends of various sizes. Gone! What a relief and now I have so much more room on the top shelves of my closet.
Books are another category of what I hold onto. I have a bookshelf in my bedroom with books that I clung to through my divorce- over 12 years ago. The books that I currently read are in stacks on my dresser. I am sure there is someone going through something traumatic who could use these self help books. So, they are next on list of things I am letting go of; although I will keep Pema Chodrin’s, “When things Fall Apart” because, while today I am blessed with things in my life being pretty darn good, I don’t take that lightly. It is a damn good book and reminds me that the human experience sometimes is not that easy.
Clearing out the old, both physical and psychic, has created an expanse in my life. My load is lightened and I feel like I can breath more freely. I am making room for something new and I look forward to seeing what that might be, but in the meantime, I am enjoying the extra space.